Saturday, October 31, 2009

Life is Getting Away From Me

Seriously! Do you ever feel like you are in a holding pattern and can't seem to break out of it?

I watched a movie recently with Gwyneth Paltrow and Anthony Hopkins, where she is a brilliant women who subverts her intelligence and one day, her mentally-diseased but equally brilliant father asks her how many days she's lost. Lost to her inertia. Wow, that was a powerful thought.

Inertia is my main challenge in life. It is not a lack of creativity, intelligence or even motivation. I have plenty of motivation, but it's not enough to move me forward at times. And I flounder.

Floundering seems be in direct proportion to the number of ideas I have circulating in my brain. The more that are actively being worked over, the more inability I have to act. Is that a lack of focus? I think so, but floundering sounds so much more interesting.

Anyway, I've decided to reactivate my writing on this particular blog, and use it therapeutically. I'll bet you already thought I was. No! I usually try to attack something more universal, more profound than my own private hells (and heavens). However, blogging is such a compelling medium for self-expression. I know so many people are doing it, but I still meet so many I wish would!

So, I'm FOCUSED this weekend on moving forward. I'm off to shoot some hoops! More about that next time.

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